February 26, 2017

Finding Clarity


Sundays are one of my favorite days of the week! As a family, we attend church and it is a challenge to keep a toddler calm and entertained during services and while my wife plays the organ. I have found that it is in those simple moments where God reminds me that everything is okay and that He is aware of our stage in life. Sometimes, it does not take a huge event to find clarity and a renewed faith if God, but rather simple steps towards a goal.

A few weeks ago I realized that I needed to get new glasses as the ones I had were five years old. After visiting the eye doctor, they made a few simple changes and ordered my new glasses. Once I put the new ones on, everything was more sharp and clear. I had forgotten how clear some things are around me. Just like these glasses, if we stop doing those small things to help build our faith in God, we lose the full clarity in life. Each Sunday, I focus on keeping Lucas occupied with books, snacks and walks around the hall. While I am not able to fully pay attention, it is those weekly church meetings that help keep my vision and faith clear.

February 16, 2017

Something's Off


Ever have a moment where you know something is just off and you are not sure what it is exactly?!? That happened to me over this past weekend. The weekend started off great and I got a lot done but I began to notice that there was something's off about my hearing. Of course, I am deaf and wear cochlear implants. But, something was really off with the way I was hearing with my Cochlear Implant. This is nothing new or alarming to me and I thought it was just a weird phase. I kept thinking it would pass and things will be back to the "normal" that I know.

Sunday, things started to sound even more off and I was supposed to teach a class that day. The way I was hearing began to make it harder for me to hear and I was becoming uncomfortable holding a conversation with lots of background noise. I ended up not being able to teach and felt very out of place. Again, I kept telling myself that it will pass and to try putting my cochlear implant in a drying system and see if moisture got in.

Monday morning, things started to sound a little better but not all the way there. I went to work that day and once again I started to become uncomfortable with holding conversations and having a hard time understanding everything everyone was saying. The same thing happened the following day and thought I would have to go see my audiologist.

On Tuesday night I was working on a project and the thought came, "switch out your microphone on the implant" -- I thought, "I don't think it will do much, but I will give it a try." Sure enough, after I replaced my microphone, everything sounded back to normal! I felt so relieved and more grateful for my hearing.

Tips and reminders for future "something's off" moments:
  • Inspect the device, troubleshoot. 
  • Switch out parts (headpieces, microphones, and batteries.) 
  • Place in a drying system to help pull out any moisture. 
  • If none of the first three options helped, consult with your audiologist. 
Living with cochlear implants is a blessing but it also as holds it's unique challenges along the journey.

What are your "something's off" moments?

February 14, 2017

January 18, 2017

Flash Back - From Silent Moment to Silent Day


Today I kept thinking about some of my upbringing experiences and the challenges I face and continue to face as an adult. I am grateful for all those in my life that help me find the blessing in each day. The last few weeks my son has been learning sign language and it is so fun to watch! 

Enjoy a post from the past! 

July 10, 2010

Most of my posts are about Silent Moments but not this one. This post is about a Silent Day.

This past week I was in Texas for a Family Reunion and we went to a water park. I was a little worried because I knew I would have to take my Cochlear Implants off since we are surrounded by water. I didn't mind not being able to hear but when I am in big crowds I feel a little lost. I thought “I can’t do this.” But then I remembered a little saying on my desk “Do Hard Things and Go the Distance”.


We arrived at the parking lot and I thought, “here I go” and took my Cochlear Implants off. I got out of the car and took a deep breath and said a prayer in my heart asking for comfort. Right after that my little 8-year-old cousin, Bridger, came running to me and mouthed the words really big saying “You are my buddy!!” He was so cute about it and I never knew he was an answer to my prayer until halfway into the day.

We get to our gathering place and Bridger says “Let's go on the slides!” I was still a little shy to go on them but with his big smile and his hand holding tight to my hand we went to go find some cool slides. Bridger was my ears and he was good at it. He made up his own signs and he always made sure I understood what was going on. I then found myself relaxed and knew that I was going to be just fine. It also gave me a new perspective on things. Sometimes we never know what someone is going through so we should be the best friend and person we can be. Bridger did not know how I was feeling on the inside but he took me by the hand and did the best that he could do. This little 8-year-old boy was a huge example to me and seems like an adult.

Thank you, Bridger!!

(Today, Bridger is growing into a fine young man who is thriving on his swim team.)